Wednesday, August 12, 2009: 8:44 PM
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sigh.
i admit i felt regret when i received my n-th assignment back from chen ying. i never seem to be able to get a B for her module. that's why i felt quite sad but i got over the C thing already.
i asked myself this question "what am i doing in nie?" for n-th times today. i feel sad, for the first time, not for the C but for my stupid decision.
first day sucks. it sucked all my energy away. everyone's copying and taking down notes. well, me? didn't even manage to catch what the train is talking, let alone taking down notes. -.- what will become of me? OH! dear future students. look carefully, this is me -- ur future teacher.
*evil grins*
ok, i know i will pass this thing, survived it. this thing is for 3 mth. no longer then this and i'm on my break again. then one mth assistantship and 2 semester for shit again and i'm on my own.
that's where i wanna fast forward to. at least i will be on my own, using the sian-teaching-method for the kids and no one will judge me. *evil laughter*
i wanna get over and done with the bond.
i wanna to study.
i wanna to be happy with photography.
i still want to do alot of things.
WHY DID I SIGN THE BOND IN THE FIRST PLACE?
WHAT AM I DOING IN NIE?