Saturday, June 25, 2011: 3:53 AM
0 comments live a little dream like this
it was like a dream. a dream i've been dreaming for years. you wouldn't understand how long i've waited and how much effort i've put in to path my way through... and it came true. i
've heard stories about it and now i have a short story of my own. it's a feeling i can't describe... and no words can describe. i
t's mysterically wonderful. i
'm like living in a dream now and i can't sleep. it's as if if i fell asleep, i would be in reality. anyone feel me? ha! u can go ahead and laugh at me being crazy but i don't care.
do you know why i liked to take photos? because every photo tells a story. even if it's a studio shoot with poses and lightings, it has a story of the shooting process... how boring is the photographer or how interesting the shoot is... i have a short memory.. a very short one indeed. i may not remember the details of every story... but when i look at the photos that i took. i remember the feelings. it goes very deep down into my heart. it reminds me of how i used to like this person, how i used to behave, how i used to think and react, how i grow over time. and every time when i think of these feelings, i love photography alittle more. these ain't great stories... but these are my stories. stories that i can tell to whoever is listening. or if not, it fills up the pages in my diary... and till the end of the day, i can bring along this thick storybook to god and i will show him/her these photos... i will thank them for writing my life in this way.
: 3:18 AM
0 comments it is you that i don't want to forget
Friday, April 29, 2011: 5:38 PM
0 comments get IN to be SANE
and yes. this is the time i need a blog.
vvv mang zhang now. every single thing pissed me off.
a friend 装可怜 to make me meet for dinner. oh and yes. i'm not a person good in rejecting people. so i end up lying. but i'm still meeting him because.... he is wheelchair bound.
my boss stuck now at daiso due to a power break down. i asked him not to make another trip back to get things. then he insist. so i'm stuck here and FORCED to take bus to meet my friend. like wtf.
and think again. home = hotel PAP use loud heller = right. i blast music = inconsiderate.
everyday see ah tiong. educated ah tiong live like a king here, drawing alot more than most of us. uneducated ah tiong live like ants here, they are EVERYWHERE.
everyday live in a place that doesn't seems mine doesn't sound like it's mine.
when i'm awake i hear ppl talk when i'm asleep i hear ppl snore.
everyday i live like a zombie. oh. a zombie who fake smiles to customers and ppl ard.
so wat's the pt of working? wat's the pt of getting off days?
Thursday, March 31, 2011: 9:03 PM
0 comments dig in more.
but then again, if you ask me. i would still tell you that i rather give up my room than that damn bond. so be it. maybe it's time for me to start hunting for a overseas job... in hk. because i do not need a mother afterall. anyway, i didn't wished to be born at all.
let me tell u. i'm super pissed off now. and i'm only exploding tonight at this, yes, THIS moment
cos i cannot take NOISE NAGS 优柔寡断ness ppl invading my privacy and people touching me all over the place
BUT THEN
you possesses all these as if it's natural in everybody. and i could simply just conclude that you are a perverted old naggy man
i cannot take it because i most probably am going to work with you till i quit this job grrr.
i shall put on a pms face everytime you are ard.
nightmares everynight! grrr.
the end.
shoo away.
Saturday, March 19, 2011: 6:28 PM
0 comments japan's earthquake
it's actually very saddening to know about this. stories and stories people zoomed in to look at. things that were hidden. a country chooses what to say and what not to say.
upset
Wednesday, March 16, 2011: 8:12 PM
0 comments Again
I pushed another you away again.
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Friday, March 11, 2011: 11:45 AM
0 comments i've never met her before.
i felt so happy then suddenly this idea came.
"what has it got to do with you? you aint part of their family at all."
Saturday, February 5, 2011: 6:45 PM
0 comments 只是你都不知道
很久了…… 在茫茫人海里 不断寻找你的踪影 在汪洋大海里 不断寻找你的气息
很久了…… 全世界都以为你走了 我还是苯苯守着 所有人都认定你不会再回来了 我还是选择守着
很久了…… 双手已经无力握紧了 麻痹了疼痛了 心脏已经无力保持节奏了 慢下了歇着
但已经很久了…… 原以为的手累了心死了 却一直在深土里 握得更紧了动得更稳定了 只是更不为人知了
更爱你了……
Saturday, January 29, 2011: 2:53 PM
0 comments sigh
normal days @ chinatown is good. good food's everywhere. CNY days @ chinatown is sucky. people everywhere.
Sunday, January 23, 2011: 10:40 AM
0 comments 梁靜茹 - 情歌
Saturday, January 22, 2011: 10:04 PM
0 comments girls are petty. if they are not, then you are like to be one or meet one like that.
i don't exist to find a flower vase for your flowers. neither did i exist for converting 3 songs in .MP3 to .WAV i don't exist to tell u the damn password for the mac everytime you come. neither did i exist for watching your works everytime you ask for it.
i may not get that standard of work done, but i sure can get it done somehow smoothly and definately beautifully. i choose not to because of the commission my boss offered to me is freaking not worth me doing it lor. so since i'm not putting my hand in video stuff, do not ask me to do any video related stuff!
what are you so proud of?
the things ain't completely done by you. it's smth done by YOU AND YOUR FRIENDS. tell me if they would continue to give (free?) support when you are all working in future. you have your crew. you pick up the bad habits of production and think it's all right. then you bitch about your client. tell me if it's right.
show off to me. when something is done and it's totally done by you. when it's your "baby".
last note.
i am not an admin girl in the office.
Friday, January 21, 2011: 11:24 AM
0 comments when the time has come....
to update my deadly blog.
HAHAHA!
i'm so tired right now. argh. i couldn't open my eyes now. can't concentrate to edit photos either. :(
zhou gong... leave me alone for toDAY and come back toNIGHT please~~~
Wednesday, January 19, 2011: 10:39 AM
0 comments Jay Chao Diao - Huang Ming Zhi
Tuesday, January 18, 2011: 10:31 AM
0 comments 黄明志 - 新年歌
Saturday, January 15, 2011: 11:51 AM
0 comments i often thought of this question
when will the time come for me to go?
it happens every now and then and i can tell you, god, i can't take it. i don't become a better person after go through shit. i didn't and i don't know how. i wished i was never born. you tell me, you loved me but you never give me a moment of peace. even now when it's just less than a month i'm going overseas, you have to let me bring a heavy heart over there. ain't you selfish too? and yes, i am picking on you, so go on bring me away and punish me. :'( i rather go through physical pain then emotional pain. too heavy for me.
Tuesday, December 28, 2010: 10:37 AM
0 comments blog blog
god damn tired. pay increment of 600....hkd! haha okay lah.. 100sgd lor. it's just to make myself feel better. :P christmas is way too crazy and i didn't have enough rest that i was expecting to have. :(
tml is super tiring too. 2 shoots and buffet after work. :(
anyway, new year is coming. the 2011 resolution coming up soon :)
Sunday, December 19, 2010: 2:04 PM
0 comments look
i wish my mum dead. now. when u look back, u will most prolly say i really have wished my mother dead for a million times already. and then u look back again, maybe u will realised that i'm the one who really hated my mother.
but it's only when she's dead, i get a total break free from all the rubbish from the bitches in the family.. i will get a life of my own.. i will have a PEACE OF MIND. do u ever understand?
gossips and gossips. MYOB! do i need to get that software to install in ur head?
Friday, December 17, 2010: 5:53 PM
0 comments updates.
for the sake of updating. oh. and if u wanna catch me, log in sina weibo! okay, i'm gg off to meet my girl click. bye.
Sunday, December 12, 2010: 9:43 PM
0 comments not in the mood
every little thing can piss me off right now. can you imagine how bad is my mood now? oh. you sure can't imagine how bad my temper is.
there is a couple of things so irritating now. but right now, the top winner is my cpu who refuses to detect monitors!
sibeh dulan now. until i can't even sleep when i close my eyes. turn here turn there.
i should be sleeping by now since i got home extra early today.
knnbccb..!
get lost. i hate you.
amy chan michelle yeoh give me more peace of mind than you do. you steal my life, my room, my happiness, my everything.
you are hurting me.
i really hate you. cos you are like the big G that takes away everything after giving me some sweeties.
i can't use my desktop now!!!! i hate it.
bloody fcuker.
argh!!!
someone kill me will you?
Tuesday, December 7, 2010: 10:52 AM
0 comments the co. has come to this point
ridiculous. w/o facebook, there's weibo and blogs.
i don't care what did you say to him. or did u mean i should care. currently i'm doing this shit not you.
it's really a shit when you work with people who do: things last min, don't plan, don't know what's going on, don't put in effort, don't appreciate and more.......
what's more, i get the shit.
Monday, November 29, 2010: 2:04 PM
0 comments Taylor Swift - Haunted
You and I walk a fragile line I have known it all this time But I never thought I'd live to see it break
It's getting dark and its all too quiet And I can't trust anything now And it's coming over you like it's all a big mistake
Oh, holding my breath Won't lose you again Something's made your eyes go cold
Come on, come on Don't leave me like this I thought I had you figured out Something's gone terribly wrong You're all I wanted
Come on, come on Don't leave me like this I thought I had you figured out Can't breathe whenever you're gone Can't turn back now I'm haunted
Stood there and watched you walk away From everything we had But I still mean every word I say to you
He will try to take away my pain And he just might make me smile But the whole time I'm wishing he was you instead
Oh, holding my breath Won't see you again Something keeps me holding on to nothing
Come on, come on Don't leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out Something's gone terribly wrong You're all I wanted
Come on, come on Don't leave me like this I thought I had you figured out Can't breathe whenever you're gone Can't turn back now I'm haunted
I know I know I just know
You're not gone You can't be gone No
Come on, come on Don't leave me like this I thought I had you figured out Something's gone terribly wrong Won't finish what you started
Come on, come on Don't leave me like this I thought I had you figured out Can't breathe whenever you're gone I can't go back I'm haunted
You and I walk a fragile line I have known it all this time Never ever thought I'd see it break Never thought I'd see it
Wednesday, November 24, 2010: 11:10 PM
0 comments wtf
i feel like writing some thing. those stupid short stories. those little not-very-poetic poems. and i couldn't think of anything. there is no inspiration.
Tuesday, November 23, 2010: 2:41 PM
0 comments friends
i actually like going to shuqi's hse to take dajie's accessories. it's like one of the best times/mood for me to take photos. really.
the routine... reach bedok mrt, walk there (for exercising sake), eat dinner, start product shoot, then play a while with the little monster before shuqi walk me to the bus stop.
Tuesday, November 16, 2010: 9:53 AM
0 comments i'm fine, really.
it's been a while since i blogged. so how is life?
ok, that's a common question people ask and like to ask. not forgetting another favourite question - what have your planned for your life? something along this "money road" question.
ok, let me get back to the how's life question. i'm fine, doing well. don't have to worry becausei wouldn't go to the extend of asking a money loan from you. so yeap. thanks for your concern.
Tuesday, November 9, 2010: 10:48 PM
0 comments 双语 Bilingual
hey, it doesn't mean i can not make any mistake because i am a singaporean. if you are so great, then don't bother studying or working in singapore. i mean everything has its pros and cons, humans too. so, why criticising after correcting me? just shut up, will you?
i hate it when people give a certain expectation to someone or something. yes, i am angry. it's not fair to say "all chinese are uneducated" after i talked to you either, isn't it? so please, do not judge all singaporeans after i misspelled a japanese name.
money road money road. i don't like the idea of slashing price.
Tuesday, September 28, 2010: 9:25 AM
0 comments buy me books
Who is buying me the whole list of books written by Alexandra Potter?
Her books are HERE I have "Be Careful What You Wished For" and "Me And Mr Darcy" already.
Sunday, September 26, 2010: 11:12 PM
0 comments in the end
i bought this. to replace the 512 bamboo pen.
personal rating : 4/5 the not so good thing is only the pressure that i have to apply. everything else is like wacom. very good alternative and it's cheap too. :)
Friday, September 24, 2010: 9:32 AM
0 comments can't make up my mind
full frame for fisheye? or non full frame for 10-22mm?
haha.
Thursday, September 23, 2010: 9:25 AM
0 comments happy mooncake festival
taken on 2010 09 22.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010: 10:07 AM
0 comments laughter
Tuesday, September 21, 2010: 9:27 AM
0 comments can or not?
Monday, September 20, 2010: 2:45 PM
0 comments recent me
i attended wendy ong's 21st! surprisingly i didn't push the appt away last min-ly.
went for raya visit at mubz instead of going for the big four's event on sat. even more surprising.
my boss complains my clothes looks the same when i only have one week routine of tshirts and 2 jeans that i'm wearing for outdoor. =/ please lah. i don't have extra for new clothes.
my mum bought me a 10$/slice fish yesterday and i scolded her. if u know why, u will know why. if not, then don't bother.
---
freedom VS future.
Friday, September 17, 2010: 9:27 AM
0 comments 周笔畅 - 单面镜 MV
Monday, September 13, 2010: 6:46 PM
2 comments 你知道答案吗?
有时候,我也不知道我在害怕什么。
Sunday, September 12, 2010: 11:02 AM
0 comments 寂寞寂寞就好
很有意思的歌
Saturday, September 11, 2010: 2:27 PM
0 comments 传说
听说
在很久很久以前, 我是超人。
所以
在很久很久以后, 我已不是超人。
Thursday, September 9, 2010: 9:19 PM
0 comments ...
挫败感很重
Wednesday, September 8, 2010: 11:25 PM
0 comments recently.
alvin has indeed letting me go shooting newborn. yeap. i tried my 1st newborn shoot at mount a hospital yesterday. the one day old baby kept crying but i wasn't very disturbing to her =/
work has been fine for me.
anyway, i'm losing contact w most of my friends. they have all started their new life in school, in work, in other countries. i hope the friends i've made through out the years are true friends =/
i think that jacob from moe is pissed w me. anyway, i have yet to get the exact amt of damages. like wth.
Thursday, August 19, 2010: 12:02 PM
0 comments update
Abby from NIE practicum office is the most knowledgeable lady in NIE!
anyway, the situation now is that i don't have to report to school already :) i'm happy!
Monday, August 16, 2010: 4:35 PM
0 comments my fb status
NIE staff shortened their working hours from 9-5pm to 10-4pm because of YOG? 4 emails out to tender my resignation. 3 calls to the department in charge. none replied since 9am. and the customer service said because of yog, they are gone for the day!
I am Fong Yi Wei (IC: S89*****Z / Student Number: NS89*****Z).
I am currently doing my school experience at ****** Primary School, entering NIE for a 1 year course on September 9. I am writing in to tender my letter of resignation.
I appreciate the opportunities I have been given, but due to various personal reasons, I am unable to continue my contract/bond.
Please do inform me if I have to complete any procedure.
i finally went to see a sinseh. my hand hurts like shit :( accupucture is SHITTY. :( 65$ leh =/
Wednesday, May 19, 2010: 6:11 PM
0 comments studio shot
did i tell you i had a studio shot with lishean and xuefang? it was 10days ago tho. it was a bit awkward for me because they two aint models.
nonetheless, it turned out well. :) even though my boss keep saying that i wasn't good cos i only got tens of 300+ photos taken. but so what? i was happy w my outcome. my models were GOOD.
thanks models.
Saturday, May 15, 2010: 11:07 PM
0 comments evil thought
i wish my mum die soon. it's an evil thought.
a thought a teacher shouldb't have a thought a daughter shouldn't have
it's just so sian. i think i'm gg out to shoot later. bye.
Friday, February 12, 2010: 5:13 PM
0 comments update
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR
:)
jane has no mood to work today.
Wednesday, February 10, 2010: 10:25 PM
0 comments updates
i'm fine.
these two are what i have been wanting to get but i don't have the money.
my ipod nano is so old now (in the case of electronics) and it is still ALIVE. i don't even have an excuse to change it. so sad. so, no new mp3 for the time being until my current one decides to die on me. (and i hope it do, soon.)
and this. of cos not this one, but the one i wanted is 400+ SGD from national geographic. another sad case. so i downgrade my expectation to tamrac. ooh. i don't even know the price in sgd for this one. but it's definately cheaper than NG.
saves~~~ saving~~~
a couple for things to update.
like,
i don't like OLs in mrts and those idiotic BIG sized men who refuse stand alone and leans on to the HAND grip.
i have a nice boss! he got me some bak kwa when he went to q at clementi.... for 3 hrs. uncle clement got me pineapple tarts.
i'm on cny break from this sat till next thurs. :)
i so need a sleep!
good nite~
Saturday, February 6, 2010: 2:36 PM
0 comments photography
this job got me up from bed w/o complain, travel half across the island to the studio on every working day. it's must be smth i real like eh? but i'm starting to think that i don't fit to do this, because i'm not creative and i don't have the artistic mind. it's tough.
today is saturday. i'm finally spending my time at home. satisfied.
i feel like upgrading my laogong becos he has reached his limit! but i dun have the money :(
Thursday, February 4, 2010: 10:20 PM
0 comments 休息
fubi & BL book is published. like finally. not bad. nails are hard and sharp i guess but looking at the product guess it's worth it isn't it
i'm the event photographer today sounds cool uh? i used ext flash today for the 1st time. results? i think i'm talented. HAHA! i know very bu yao lian but hey, i am wad.. :P
i'm seriously proud of my shots today althou i missed one or two impt shots overexposed and underexposed a few shots but hey, i'm a first timer to flash ok.
it's so nice meeting the ppl i've been wanting to meet for so long vina yiqi shihui cherlyn and more and more~~!!! it's like a gathering! guess it's gonna be a while till we meet up again...
Monday, November 23, 2009: 10:25 PM
2 comments today is monday
i sent out four resumes on last friday night and i'm already end my first day of work now. i think i'm lucky. got a nice happy job with just four resumes and one confirm cmi job enquiry.
i edited ard 70 photos today. DON"T SAY "CHEH" cos i edited every pimple, hei yan quan, hair strands, dirt on backdrop... can't believe even kiddos have HEI YAN QUAN! anyway.... i can't say it's fun... but i definately don't think i'm wasting my time~
i like it:) but i'm goddamn tired.
anyway, i register my class 2b. starting my 1st lesson on 26nov :)
and i heard 27th is a public holiday! ohmy.... do i have holiday too?
Sunday, November 22, 2009: 6:45 PM
2 comments woohoo!
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@ dphotofolio
:)
my working time: 9.00am-5.30pm monday-friday
Saturday, November 21, 2009: 1:18 AM
0 comments today
think the chance is not high for the printing job at brabasah.
needs designing skills and illustrator etc....
:(
nonetheless, still not a wasted trip down to bbc
cos i got a jay chou photobook @ 5$.
it's cheap cos the original tag says it's 61+$ :)
zap dou bou (cantonese)
ok, i sent resumes online jus now to 2 photography related job post.
hope they will reply me
with a "YES I WANT YOU"
*prays hard*
and to 2 other jobs....
one mandarin speaking receptionist (i'm from CHINESE studies. :P)
another to admin in educational centers (it's not teaching. it's just admin. -.-)
*prays not as hard but still hard*
need a job...
for a few mths....
i need $ for holidays and driving lessons
OH! btw, i wore my contact lens....
weird but
NO MORE HEADACHES
due to the stupid spec frame :)
and and NO MORE blurred friends :)
hmm... maybe can work in some book stores too! LOL
good nite earthlings :)
PS: idk y but i quite like this center alignment thingy.
Thursday, November 19, 2009: 8:05 PM
2 comments updates
i failed the short eye test that day when i register for class 2B
ok. u can laugh.
but then i will die if i wear my specs for all the damn lesson.
the eye doctor say i got frame phobia.
-.-
my turn to laugh at myself. LOL
anyway, i got myself a contact lens to try it out
if i still give in to the damn headache
i will earn enuf $ to hire a chaffeur
SBS or SMRT is a good choice eh?
haha.
i'm gg to bras basah tml.
wish my luck
:)
Wednesday, November 18, 2009: 12:46 PM
0 comments 游牧民族的女儿
一个经常出走的人 一个常不在家的心 一个渴望爱的女人 一个不懂得爱的心
她是一个游牧民族 到处寻找爱 四处奔跑
她从来都没有得到爱 她不知道也不懂它 她只知道她用了一生都还是找不到
她成长了她变成了母亲 却还离“妈妈”很远 怎么办?她不懂得爱自己的孩子
她是一个游牧民族 四处游荡 不懂得什么叫做稳定
她又要出走了 几时? 再见
最好不要再见了 我不要抱着随时会被抛下的定时炸弹!
如果一个家只是要形象性的存在 一个父亲和一个母亲
那么算了! 不要再是游牧民族的女儿了!
Thursday, November 12, 2009: 8:35 PM
0 comments 明天
Monday, November 9, 2009: 11:41 PM
0 comments the bigger the xpectation the bigger the disappointment
i think holidays is going to be quite mandune for me. countdowning in china is cancelled. langkawi is still not confirm yet since she hasn't call up to her on her damn passport. and i'm not very positive abt this langkawi trip. so yea. happy working in the photoshop at brasbasah PROVIDED i'm employed by them *prays hard*
ok, i totally oversee the fact that i got 2 exams coming my way. need sleep badly. good nite earthlings :)
Saturday, November 7, 2009: 11:25 PM
2 comments SHE 签名会